i got paid recently and having actual money to spend and treat myself has been nice.
i bought a couple of nyx lipsticks and am waiting for them to arrive, and went to the mall with my sister in law today and got some earrings that won't turn my ears green. i'm happy knowing i can buy things that will make me happy, like bras and clothes and things. i've been broke and jobless for so long that i'm still afraid to spend any money but am slowly getting over that and learning that it's o-k to treat myself finally.
i've been consistently happy with working, and am enjoying it and my coworkers a lot, but still haven't been seeing a lot of my friends. for a little bit i thought one of my coworkers didnt like me but i think it was just because i was new, as she's now saying hello to me when i arrive and talks to me sometimes. it's very nice. one of the managers i really like, she's very friendly and jokes about how quiet i am when i arrive and leave and saw me when i came in last week and went "i've finally caught you're arrival!!" she also thanks me when i leave and it makes me feel good.
i start college and turn 19 next month. it feels weird to age, and for some reason i can't accept that someday i'll be 23. just 23, not anything older like 45. it could be because 23 is closer to my current age than 45 but it's still strange. it's also funny because i have friends still in high school who are starting school on the 23rd and its hilarious because i'm graduated.
anyway it's been a good month and i've been loving working and feel good earning money.
